Monday, October 18, 2010
Pumpkin Patch
Mike Kai and I drove out to the pumpkin Patch at the Rolloff Family farms. We rived and it was a little crowded but not too bad.At the very beginning we saw a family of 6 well dressed as pirates it was awesome. We saw the 3 boys there and all were pretty cool. We saw Amy as well but she was buisy with guest meet and greets. We first went to go feed the animals. Kai loved feeding them. We ended up buying to cups of food to feed them. She really loves animals. After we saw the animals we went romping through the patch. We saw pumpkins big and small and she loved them all. For the last couple weeks she has been asking for pumpkin this and that. She is actually excited! She found a couple pumpkins and went home with 3, two for her and one for mike. In the middle of picken our pumpkins there was a kick the sockerball game. Kai loved it. Jake was nice and friendly to Kai and giggled when Kai tried to kick the ball. After we picked our pumpkins we went to see the tractor and we saw the baby tiger. After that it was time to go home. Kai was so happy. We decided to take her to McDonalds for lunch and a potty break. After that we went to the spirit Halloween store. We kept telling Kai all the scary stuff were just toys and introduced her to everything in the store letting her touch everything. she loved it. She wasn't scared at all. We even put on some masks and she was ok with them as long as she got to touch them. After we were done there we went a couple other places then home to play allot of Pegle lol.. All in all a great day! Pics are on my facbook if you want to see.
Friday, October 8, 2010
Bullied
So the past couple days I've been seeing things about bullies and the bullied. Kids killing and getting killed. What I'm about to write isn't easy but I needed to do it. It is 1:45 in the am and I cant sleep because I read someone elses blog about their childhood and being a victim to a bully and my mind started racing. I am not looking for any pity or any sort of "hey look at me" thing, just wanted to write what happened to me as a kid. Maby as you read you will have thoughts running through your head about what has happened to you in the past and what you did about it and share them if not that's ok too. I encourage you to read it all the way through, but after you do do not think of me as different, but see these things are what made me who I am today, and what contributed to what I did yesterday.
I do have a bad memory but the things I tend to remember about my child hood are usually the not so delightful aspects. One shrink said it was mental blocking , if it were wouldn't i block out the bad as well as the good?
As far back as I can remember I was always the laugh of the class, not the class clown , but the one being laughed at. Most presume when I tell them it's because I was the fat kid ,but that is far from the truth. I was skinny as a rail till I was 13.I honestly couldn't tell you why I was targeted in grade school. But it seemed as if no matter what school I went to I was the one being picked on. Was it because I was shy? Was it because my mother moved us around so much that I was always in a new school? Was it because I was a little taller than the other kids? Was it because I was always sick and missed several days? Was it that I couldn't do PE most the time because of illness? Maby it was all of those. I never really found out.
One day in the fourth grade I came home in tears. Not like the regular emotional kid tears, but I was but in full blown I cant breath tears. After my mom got me to calm down she asked what was wrong. I finally told her that I was being harassed in school. But I didn't tell her the extent because I was afraid that my step father would punish me for it. The next day it happened again. This time even worse. After an hour of calming down and a hot shower to stop the shaking I told my mother that I wanted to go to sleep and not wake up, that I wanted to die. She asked why and I told her how the kids in class call me dumb all the time and how they throw stuff at me. She began to tell me that it was not nice of them and they were in the wrong. Just like a mom is supposed to do.. Well then I began to tell her the worst part. My teacher failed my work because I didn't understand something in the math sheet and she shoved the paper in my face and said these words which are still crystal clear in my head to this day "Wow you are really stupid. No wonder the other kids hate you." I can even remember the smell of the fresh ink she used on the paper to write "Don't be so dumb". My mother cried with me then called the school and had the teacher fired. The ridicule of being stupid followed me from school to school.
I remember 5th grade at Sierra elementary. I made a friend with a boy who had Spinabifada. We used to hang in the classroom while the others did PE and even recess. I got teased for that too. This one boy decided to tease me more than others. He made it a point to throw water at me then tell everyone I peed myself, several times a week. He threw sand in my eyes, popped my new handball, even stole my shoes. The day I remember the most though is when he threw a sharp rock about 8 inches in diameter at my head. In pain and bleeding down the back of my neck I sought help from a noon duty. The next day my whole class started teasing me and calling me a tattle. The most common thing heard from that point is "don't talk to her she will tell on you". When I moved schools (again), because it was a small town , there was always that one kid who remembered me as the kid to pick on... So I just kept it to myself never telling anyone what was said or done to me.
In JR High I remember the laughing and pointing. I remember the pulling of hair and the constant hate notes. One day a girl decided it would be fun to beat me up. She kicked me, I asked her to stop, she kicked me again and I warned her to leave me alone. As she laughed I found my seat in the class and she came up to me and slapped me. I grabbed her hands and before I could do anything the teacher pulled her away for me yelling don't hurt her Terra, Don't hurt her. she was sent to the office as the teacher sat with me to calm me down. I remember how kind she was. She had to send me to the office because of me toughing her even though she said she didn't want to. So she walked with me there. That was the last time I saw her. She quit because they suspended me for defending myself and they did not suspend the other chick. I didn't find this out till I was an adult many years later. I was suspended for three days because the other chick said I punched her which I didn't do. I was so afraid of what my mother would say. I knew my step father was in jail so he couldn't hurt me, but what would my mother do? She took me out for ice cream for defending myself.
Although you would think that that kind gesture would have made me want to stand up for myself, it made me, well just quiet. All summer long I dreaded going back to school. By that time I was living with my grandparents because my stepfather got out of jail and I refused to live with him. He abused me in ALL ways from the time I was 4 and I was terrified of him. So between not wanting to go to school and afraid of my stepfather coming for me, more and more feelings were just getting shoved into my already full mind.
Going back to Juniper I was so terrified. I knew I would see the chick who tried to beat me up, what would she do. Since she was popular she turned the whole school against me. I was kicked, laughed at, spit on, even framed for having a knife that they searched me for and thought I was lieng about because they couldn't find.I was let go because of no evidence. The ridicule got so bad that I got sick. My body shut down from all the stress and I was out of school for a month and a half. When I returned puberty had set in and I started to get boobs and a butt. Just another thing for them to poke fun at. I couldn't handle it any longer so my grandmother put me in a private school where there were only 40 kids in the entire school and half of them were grades 6 and under. I advanced there but I also gained weight rapidly (due to a thyroid problem that wasnt detected till recently). I was eating like a normal teen, but my body just kept gaining.
A couple years goes by and I go to live with my mother in Nevada. I had to join a public school again. These kids were not as bad, but I went from being the nerd to being the fat kid who hung out with freshman nerds because they were the only ones to give me the time of day. After a year of still keeping all of my feelings tucked inside of all the times I just wanted to die and not have to endure the pain any more, I moved back to California. I started HS there and the torment got worse. I was the fat nerd. I had a couple of "friends" that only hung with me because they were nerds too. Half way through the year and I couldn't take it any more. A guy was dared to ask me out. When he did I froze and then he dumped his soda all over me. This was a guy I had a crush on for a long while and thought we were friends. Who was behind tha daring, the Girl whom tried to beat me up. yup that mean spirited person.
Later that night I reached my breaking point. I was living with my aunt and she had left for the night so I was home alone. I cried and screamed like no ones business and decided to end my life. I tied a nuce out of some para cord and hung it in the closet. I was still crying hysterically. I was in the middle of writing my goodbye note and I passed out from hyperventilation. I woke the next morning with the pen still in my had with the words writen "Why me?" written on the paper infront of me/ Shaking and not sure what to do next I went to school and tried to pretend like nothing had happened. As fate had it my 4th period was health class. That days subject, Teen Suicide. I tried to get through the class but I had begun to fidget and get uncomfortable. The teacher took notice and pulled me outside. (He was a sweet man and will alwase remeber his kindness.) He asked if there was something wrong, and I just cried. I then told him I tried to end my life the night before and I didn't know what to do and that I just didn't want to be alive. He stopped the class and led me to the office where I met Dr. Eric Beam the school psychologist. From that point on I began a long and hard healing proses. It was so dificult that I started cutting to relieve the pain, I took psyc meds, I tried starving myself (to the point of passing out in front of my mom). Nothing helped.
I passed on collage scholarships because I didn't think I was good enough. Passed up on joining teams because I thought I didn't belong. Passed up friendships because I didn't think they would last. I passed up a little bit of my life from being afraid to love myself.
It wasn't till I was an adult and Happy with my life that I began to completely heal. It wasn't till after I met Mike that I began to see myself as me, not some hideous fat, ugly, nobody. I began to love and be loved back. Then I had Kai and my love got taken to another level. I felt more love than ever. I still had and have my ups and downs as is life but I now respect myself, I love myself , And I don't want to die. I do have my days where I just need a hug, But hey i guess thats part of being a woman.
As for yesterday,(Wednesday) I was at the park watching Kai play when out of the corner of my eye I see a little boy being a bully to another boy who was trying to play along. But the moment the bully tried to push the boy off the slide I saw the sheer terror in that other boys eyes and spoke up. "Boys" I yelled from the bench.. "you need to stop! You do not push others off the slide or any where else! You need to controll yourself and play nice or go sit with your parents!" Terrified of the mother or father coming up and tackling me for something I said, I was short of breath. I found myself in a fear moment. Why did I just do that? Seconds later another mom looked at me and said "good for you," I about cried then started a delightful conversation with her while watching Kai and her son play. The scared boy was not her son, but she had told me that if it was she would want someone doing what I had done. It was in that moment I realized I didn't do anything bad, I prevented something bad. Weather that child bullies again I will not know, But I personally know how comforting and good it feels when others rescue you. And the look in the boys face when he wasn't being bullied anymore said allot.
I thought about this and though of all the times I did this not knowing what I was doing. I would stand up for other kids who were bullied as a kid, as a teen and as an adult. My friends in my early adult years called me the pit bull, because I would stand up for them... I just couldn't do it for me. Now I can. Now I can be the better person and tell them they are wrong. I can look at myself and know they were wrong and it wasnt my fault.
So why did I write all this? Because I want all who read this to help those who are crying so loud that no one can hear them. It is Us that can help. Especially if you have children, educate them on what bulling is and help those who bully because somewhere deep in there there is something wrong inside that person to make them want to bully. Maby together through word of mouth we can save a few lives, help a few people, or just let others know there is help out there. Millions are on facebook every day posting their bra colors or " where they like it" maby we can chain through there that there is help. Who knows, I could be writing this for nothing, Or I could be touching one individual.. Only you who are reading will know.
I do have a bad memory but the things I tend to remember about my child hood are usually the not so delightful aspects. One shrink said it was mental blocking , if it were wouldn't i block out the bad as well as the good?
As far back as I can remember I was always the laugh of the class, not the class clown , but the one being laughed at. Most presume when I tell them it's because I was the fat kid ,but that is far from the truth. I was skinny as a rail till I was 13.I honestly couldn't tell you why I was targeted in grade school. But it seemed as if no matter what school I went to I was the one being picked on. Was it because I was shy? Was it because my mother moved us around so much that I was always in a new school? Was it because I was a little taller than the other kids? Was it because I was always sick and missed several days? Was it that I couldn't do PE most the time because of illness? Maby it was all of those. I never really found out.
One day in the fourth grade I came home in tears. Not like the regular emotional kid tears, but I was but in full blown I cant breath tears. After my mom got me to calm down she asked what was wrong. I finally told her that I was being harassed in school. But I didn't tell her the extent because I was afraid that my step father would punish me for it. The next day it happened again. This time even worse. After an hour of calming down and a hot shower to stop the shaking I told my mother that I wanted to go to sleep and not wake up, that I wanted to die. She asked why and I told her how the kids in class call me dumb all the time and how they throw stuff at me. She began to tell me that it was not nice of them and they were in the wrong. Just like a mom is supposed to do.. Well then I began to tell her the worst part. My teacher failed my work because I didn't understand something in the math sheet and she shoved the paper in my face and said these words which are still crystal clear in my head to this day "Wow you are really stupid. No wonder the other kids hate you." I can even remember the smell of the fresh ink she used on the paper to write "Don't be so dumb". My mother cried with me then called the school and had the teacher fired. The ridicule of being stupid followed me from school to school.
I remember 5th grade at Sierra elementary. I made a friend with a boy who had Spinabifada. We used to hang in the classroom while the others did PE and even recess. I got teased for that too. This one boy decided to tease me more than others. He made it a point to throw water at me then tell everyone I peed myself, several times a week. He threw sand in my eyes, popped my new handball, even stole my shoes. The day I remember the most though is when he threw a sharp rock about 8 inches in diameter at my head. In pain and bleeding down the back of my neck I sought help from a noon duty. The next day my whole class started teasing me and calling me a tattle. The most common thing heard from that point is "don't talk to her she will tell on you". When I moved schools (again), because it was a small town , there was always that one kid who remembered me as the kid to pick on... So I just kept it to myself never telling anyone what was said or done to me.
In JR High I remember the laughing and pointing. I remember the pulling of hair and the constant hate notes. One day a girl decided it would be fun to beat me up. She kicked me, I asked her to stop, she kicked me again and I warned her to leave me alone. As she laughed I found my seat in the class and she came up to me and slapped me. I grabbed her hands and before I could do anything the teacher pulled her away for me yelling don't hurt her Terra, Don't hurt her. she was sent to the office as the teacher sat with me to calm me down. I remember how kind she was. She had to send me to the office because of me toughing her even though she said she didn't want to. So she walked with me there. That was the last time I saw her. She quit because they suspended me for defending myself and they did not suspend the other chick. I didn't find this out till I was an adult many years later. I was suspended for three days because the other chick said I punched her which I didn't do. I was so afraid of what my mother would say. I knew my step father was in jail so he couldn't hurt me, but what would my mother do? She took me out for ice cream for defending myself.
Although you would think that that kind gesture would have made me want to stand up for myself, it made me, well just quiet. All summer long I dreaded going back to school. By that time I was living with my grandparents because my stepfather got out of jail and I refused to live with him. He abused me in ALL ways from the time I was 4 and I was terrified of him. So between not wanting to go to school and afraid of my stepfather coming for me, more and more feelings were just getting shoved into my already full mind.
Going back to Juniper I was so terrified. I knew I would see the chick who tried to beat me up, what would she do. Since she was popular she turned the whole school against me. I was kicked, laughed at, spit on, even framed for having a knife that they searched me for and thought I was lieng about because they couldn't find.I was let go because of no evidence. The ridicule got so bad that I got sick. My body shut down from all the stress and I was out of school for a month and a half. When I returned puberty had set in and I started to get boobs and a butt. Just another thing for them to poke fun at. I couldn't handle it any longer so my grandmother put me in a private school where there were only 40 kids in the entire school and half of them were grades 6 and under. I advanced there but I also gained weight rapidly (due to a thyroid problem that wasnt detected till recently). I was eating like a normal teen, but my body just kept gaining.
A couple years goes by and I go to live with my mother in Nevada. I had to join a public school again. These kids were not as bad, but I went from being the nerd to being the fat kid who hung out with freshman nerds because they were the only ones to give me the time of day. After a year of still keeping all of my feelings tucked inside of all the times I just wanted to die and not have to endure the pain any more, I moved back to California. I started HS there and the torment got worse. I was the fat nerd. I had a couple of "friends" that only hung with me because they were nerds too. Half way through the year and I couldn't take it any more. A guy was dared to ask me out. When he did I froze and then he dumped his soda all over me. This was a guy I had a crush on for a long while and thought we were friends. Who was behind tha daring, the Girl whom tried to beat me up. yup that mean spirited person.
Later that night I reached my breaking point. I was living with my aunt and she had left for the night so I was home alone. I cried and screamed like no ones business and decided to end my life. I tied a nuce out of some para cord and hung it in the closet. I was still crying hysterically. I was in the middle of writing my goodbye note and I passed out from hyperventilation. I woke the next morning with the pen still in my had with the words writen "Why me?" written on the paper infront of me/ Shaking and not sure what to do next I went to school and tried to pretend like nothing had happened. As fate had it my 4th period was health class. That days subject, Teen Suicide. I tried to get through the class but I had begun to fidget and get uncomfortable. The teacher took notice and pulled me outside. (He was a sweet man and will alwase remeber his kindness.) He asked if there was something wrong, and I just cried. I then told him I tried to end my life the night before and I didn't know what to do and that I just didn't want to be alive. He stopped the class and led me to the office where I met Dr. Eric Beam the school psychologist. From that point on I began a long and hard healing proses. It was so dificult that I started cutting to relieve the pain, I took psyc meds, I tried starving myself (to the point of passing out in front of my mom). Nothing helped.
I passed on collage scholarships because I didn't think I was good enough. Passed up on joining teams because I thought I didn't belong. Passed up friendships because I didn't think they would last. I passed up a little bit of my life from being afraid to love myself.
It wasn't till I was an adult and Happy with my life that I began to completely heal. It wasn't till after I met Mike that I began to see myself as me, not some hideous fat, ugly, nobody. I began to love and be loved back. Then I had Kai and my love got taken to another level. I felt more love than ever. I still had and have my ups and downs as is life but I now respect myself, I love myself , And I don't want to die. I do have my days where I just need a hug, But hey i guess thats part of being a woman.
As for yesterday,(Wednesday) I was at the park watching Kai play when out of the corner of my eye I see a little boy being a bully to another boy who was trying to play along. But the moment the bully tried to push the boy off the slide I saw the sheer terror in that other boys eyes and spoke up. "Boys" I yelled from the bench.. "you need to stop! You do not push others off the slide or any where else! You need to controll yourself and play nice or go sit with your parents!" Terrified of the mother or father coming up and tackling me for something I said, I was short of breath. I found myself in a fear moment. Why did I just do that? Seconds later another mom looked at me and said "good for you," I about cried then started a delightful conversation with her while watching Kai and her son play. The scared boy was not her son, but she had told me that if it was she would want someone doing what I had done. It was in that moment I realized I didn't do anything bad, I prevented something bad. Weather that child bullies again I will not know, But I personally know how comforting and good it feels when others rescue you. And the look in the boys face when he wasn't being bullied anymore said allot.
I thought about this and though of all the times I did this not knowing what I was doing. I would stand up for other kids who were bullied as a kid, as a teen and as an adult. My friends in my early adult years called me the pit bull, because I would stand up for them... I just couldn't do it for me. Now I can. Now I can be the better person and tell them they are wrong. I can look at myself and know they were wrong and it wasnt my fault.
So why did I write all this? Because I want all who read this to help those who are crying so loud that no one can hear them. It is Us that can help. Especially if you have children, educate them on what bulling is and help those who bully because somewhere deep in there there is something wrong inside that person to make them want to bully. Maby together through word of mouth we can save a few lives, help a few people, or just let others know there is help out there. Millions are on facebook every day posting their bra colors or " where they like it" maby we can chain through there that there is help. Who knows, I could be writing this for nothing, Or I could be touching one individual.. Only you who are reading will know.
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Diet 101
it has been 101 days of diet and I have lost 33 pounds so far. I have learned of many new recipes that are healthier and really tasty. We have eaten out 80% less and I don't so much miss it! Some times I crave french fries, but that's about it. I get over that when we order Kai fries and I have a couple. I love eating Vegies so that's a plus! Any who, for the last month I have hit a plateau and it's my fault because I haven't been eating during the day and I haven't been exercising. I mostly blame it on stress and worry. Ive been trying to get prego and I worried if I exercised to much that I would miscarry. I think these feelings of fear stem from my first pregnancy witch I miscarried. If you have never miscarried let me tell you it hurts physically and mentally. Thoughts wander through your head of what did I do? What could I have done to prevent it? So I was being over cautious and I wouldn't ride the bike and took short short walks. Just what my body didn't need. I had promised myself that I wouldn't get down if I didn't get prego last month, I broke my promise. The thoughts ran through my head again of what did I do wrong?. Well I have come to a conclusion of I will still try to get prego but I'm not going to be over cautious. I'm going to get out there and walk and bike. I really wanted to go out yesterday but poor Kai was coughing up a lung. After nap time I will go for a nice long walk today. I want to loose more weight and more inches. The only way for me to do this is by getting out. For me this is easier to do with someone, But no one wants to during the day. So I will have to try harder to get out and get myself to a better me. Hopefully ill get prego soon, have the baby and be able to loose and loose till I hit my goal.. I am hoping that in 2 years from now I will be 150, tone and have more energy. 2 years sounds like so long sometimes....
Oh and Mike has been doing great in all of this too, I am proud of him and he makes me want to keep going!
Oh and Mike has been doing great in all of this too, I am proud of him and he makes me want to keep going!
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
ZOOOOOOO
Ok, ok, lol. So Mike and I took Kai to the zoo for the first time a couple weeks ago and I have been lagging on blogging about it. Well this is what I am doing now lol.
The trip was great! We saw many diffrent animals and Kai was excited about all of them! We even payed the little extra and walked through the Dino exibit. Kai wasnt scared at all! In the middle of the day we took a rest and watched the bird show wich was amazing! Kai loved to watch them. She loves animals just like I do :)Here are some pics... There were so many so I just chose a handfull... (oh and we believe the eagle handler was Jens doppleganger :))
The trip was great! We saw many diffrent animals and Kai was excited about all of them! We even payed the little extra and walked through the Dino exibit. Kai wasnt scared at all! In the middle of the day we took a rest and watched the bird show wich was amazing! Kai loved to watch them. She loves animals just like I do :)Here are some pics... There were so many so I just chose a handfull... (oh and we believe the eagle handler was Jens doppleganger :))
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Loosing Me
So its coming up on 60 days of this diet and I have lost 30 pounds so far. Do I feel diffrent.. Not much. Do I want to Quit.. NOPE. I am looking forward to next summer when I can buy a bathing suit that doesnt have a skirt attached to hide my cottage cheese.I am noticing a lil bit here and there but I still feel discusted with myself which drives me to keep going. I'm not missing the ice cream binges or the Carls JR runs. I'm actualy happy about cooking. I enjoy it. I've come up with some meals that have proven to be better for us. And they taste good. Mike has lost almost 30 pounds too. You can notice it in his cloths. He comes up with nifty ideas as well for food and we make them so they fit our calorie budget. All in all everything is going well. I realy want to step it up thoug.. Hopefully I can muster more energy :)
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
changes
Yes I know its been a while. Where do I start? Lets start with Kai. All the Cali people are wondering How she is doing. She is doing great! She is growing tall and her hair is getting longer, a lil thicker and still has curls. She is now used to taking showers and when she takes a bath she likes to pretend to swim on her belly and back. She still does not like water in her face though. We are working on getting her dirty without her thinking it's iky... Long proses lol. She is learning more and more each day. She has had music on at bed time since the day she was born and I think it has heightened her love for music. She loves to play her friends drums, keyboards, and guitars. We need to get her her own. Hopefully we will soon. She has also started singing along to tv commercials, tv show songs and she sings her abc's ALL the time. She has gotten A-Z quite well. She can recognize almost all of them now. She can recognize her numbers and count from 1-15 without help. She recently got a Yo Gabba Gabba doll FooFa. It sings a song and she tries to sing along with it. She doesn't know all the words yet, but she has the pitches and tune down. She is cute lol.
Mike and I have been doing great as well. We have adjusted well to the rain and the environment... Accept the allergies lol. He and I have been itchy and sneezy lol.. I cut all my hair off and I think I want to keep it this way for a long long time.
Beyond that we have made life changes for the better.
Mike and I got insurance. I went to the doc to get a check up and that day changed me for the better. When I was weighed I was disgusted at what I have become. I looked at the scale and fought back tears. How could I let myself get to 311 pounds? How?
Yeah I didn't eat the best, And I didn't exercise as much as much as I should, But 311? So I looked deeper into it. On the weekdays I was not eating enough calories during the day and dinner usually came out of a box, although it was not too many calories, it was allot of fat and carbs and waaay too much sodium. The average person should not consume less than 1200 calories in a day, I was lucky to reach 1100 during the weeks even with boxed food. So not only was I starving my body of caloric energy I was replacing it with bad food.
Another bad thing was my thyroid levels. Apparently they make the body store fat instead of burn it... Hmmmmm..
So begins the new way of living. Sure I will have to adjust later to accommodate how much I loose, But the biggest thing Is I will keep track!
My goal is to loose 150 lbs. So how do I do this without spending thousands of dollars on diet crap and a gym? (Yeah I know gyms are good and as soon as we have stable funds we will get a gym membership).
I wiped our usual hamburger helper and all sorts of stuff from our diet and started a calorie tracker. i look at it at least 3 times a day if not more. To make sure I am eating the correct amount. I Am staying between 1200-1400 calories a day. Mike and I have come up with new menu items for the week and how to make them better for us.
Step One: Give away all the stuff that isn't in the diet menu, If its not there, we can't eat it.
Step two: Make better food. I am actually enjoying cooking and I am loving the way things are coming out. On my next blog I will post some recipes that we have tried and have been absolutely wonderful.
Step three: Treat ourselves to something once a week but dont over do it. There are plenty of yummy items that can be found for low cal and fat at restaurants.
Step four: Even though it's late and we have been out all day Still cook! Don't give into the ease of that 700 calorie fast food pick up! Hey the body burns 800-1000 calories sleeping, so if we have to eat before bed, it's not that bad ( Our doc even told Mike that studies have been done about eating before bed does not effect the diet.)
Step five: Take the thyroid meds. Ya I know those who read this don't need this option, but I do lol.
Step six: Get out and do something.
So among other things that we have been doing, I lost 8 lbs in 2 weeks! Yay me! I know it isn't going to be like this every weigh in... But hey what a booster!
The first week after taking the meds I had more energy and It was great! At the end of the week the meds began to take full effect. I had really sore legs like I had been walking up and down 50 flights of stairs, you know the feeling you get the day after a fever when you have the flu... Achy, sore, week, legs... I had it for two days... Couldn't figure out why... Then it came to me... My body is finally using the muscle it has and possessing the food I put in my body. Mike and I have spent all day at the mall or around town walking for hours and I never had sore anything. This past weekend we were out walking for about 5.5 hours and my calves were sore the next two days lol. It's an odd feeling that I have only felt after mega exercise before. It's Kinda nice. To actually feel my body working for me.
All in all I am happy for the change. I feel better, I feel the muscles I have, And I know if I keep it up, I'll be able to buy cloths that look good and I can stop paying fat tax. I look forward to next summer... It is my goal to be able to wear a bathing suit that doesn't have a skirt to hide my Huge butt! Biggest thing of all I'm looking forward to a better me! Wish me luck... Egg me on... I need all the JuJu I can get!
Mike and I have been doing great as well. We have adjusted well to the rain and the environment... Accept the allergies lol. He and I have been itchy and sneezy lol.. I cut all my hair off and I think I want to keep it this way for a long long time.
Beyond that we have made life changes for the better.
Mike and I got insurance. I went to the doc to get a check up and that day changed me for the better. When I was weighed I was disgusted at what I have become. I looked at the scale and fought back tears. How could I let myself get to 311 pounds? How?
Yeah I didn't eat the best, And I didn't exercise as much as much as I should, But 311? So I looked deeper into it. On the weekdays I was not eating enough calories during the day and dinner usually came out of a box, although it was not too many calories, it was allot of fat and carbs and waaay too much sodium. The average person should not consume less than 1200 calories in a day, I was lucky to reach 1100 during the weeks even with boxed food. So not only was I starving my body of caloric energy I was replacing it with bad food.
Another bad thing was my thyroid levels. Apparently they make the body store fat instead of burn it... Hmmmmm..
So begins the new way of living. Sure I will have to adjust later to accommodate how much I loose, But the biggest thing Is I will keep track!
My goal is to loose 150 lbs. So how do I do this without spending thousands of dollars on diet crap and a gym? (Yeah I know gyms are good and as soon as we have stable funds we will get a gym membership).
I wiped our usual hamburger helper and all sorts of stuff from our diet and started a calorie tracker. i look at it at least 3 times a day if not more. To make sure I am eating the correct amount. I Am staying between 1200-1400 calories a day. Mike and I have come up with new menu items for the week and how to make them better for us.
Step One: Give away all the stuff that isn't in the diet menu, If its not there, we can't eat it.
Step two: Make better food. I am actually enjoying cooking and I am loving the way things are coming out. On my next blog I will post some recipes that we have tried and have been absolutely wonderful.
Step three: Treat ourselves to something once a week but dont over do it. There are plenty of yummy items that can be found for low cal and fat at restaurants.
Step four: Even though it's late and we have been out all day Still cook! Don't give into the ease of that 700 calorie fast food pick up! Hey the body burns 800-1000 calories sleeping, so if we have to eat before bed, it's not that bad ( Our doc even told Mike that studies have been done about eating before bed does not effect the diet.)
Step five: Take the thyroid meds. Ya I know those who read this don't need this option, but I do lol.
Step six: Get out and do something.
So among other things that we have been doing, I lost 8 lbs in 2 weeks! Yay me! I know it isn't going to be like this every weigh in... But hey what a booster!
The first week after taking the meds I had more energy and It was great! At the end of the week the meds began to take full effect. I had really sore legs like I had been walking up and down 50 flights of stairs, you know the feeling you get the day after a fever when you have the flu... Achy, sore, week, legs... I had it for two days... Couldn't figure out why... Then it came to me... My body is finally using the muscle it has and possessing the food I put in my body. Mike and I have spent all day at the mall or around town walking for hours and I never had sore anything. This past weekend we were out walking for about 5.5 hours and my calves were sore the next two days lol. It's an odd feeling that I have only felt after mega exercise before. It's Kinda nice. To actually feel my body working for me.
All in all I am happy for the change. I feel better, I feel the muscles I have, And I know if I keep it up, I'll be able to buy cloths that look good and I can stop paying fat tax. I look forward to next summer... It is my goal to be able to wear a bathing suit that doesn't have a skirt to hide my Huge butt! Biggest thing of all I'm looking forward to a better me! Wish me luck... Egg me on... I need all the JuJu I can get!
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Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Yes Ive been lagging
I've been lagging on my blog. It's not like anyone waits for it.
But anywho. Kai is now considered Potty Trained. She has a couple accidents like toddlers have, But she will hold her pee till we get to a potty, she will wake up at night to go, and she uses the bathroom all by herself(with her potty seat). She even pulls up her own pants and everything.. I'm always peeping in and pre-cutting butt wipe for her (or she will use the whole roll lol), but I don't let her see me so she thinks she is a big girl doing it All by herself.
I sold my (Mike's that he gave me) Bike that was in California. With it I bought a new bike here that is comfortable to ride and that I am more comfortable riding safety wise. After the 15th we will buy the trailer for Kai and start going on regular rides. The trailer also helps with the rain factor as it is covered. Hopefully we will get into riding longer and longer. My new friend and her husband might work with us to go more.
New Friends!
So I have made a couple friends up here and they have husbands that Mike has enjoyed as well. Jessie and Brett(her husband) have a son that is 2.5 and he gets along with Kai quite well. Brett and Mike get along as well so that is good. Jessie is cool and we share many thoughts on things.
Then there is the couple Lesley and Josh. They have a son named Gus whom turned a year not to long ago. We have been getting together often lately and it has been great! Game night has been fun too.
Lesley and I have allot in common and we get each other. We like spending time together too. I am glad we are great Friends. For the first time in a long time I feel like I have a Best friend!
I do still miss my friends in California, and the ones I haven't talked to in hella long from Sparks. I still think of them very often. You never forget a good friend!!
So in recap, Yay for a new bike, Yay for Kai being potty trained, And A big yay for new friends and Never forgetting old friends!! :)
But anywho. Kai is now considered Potty Trained. She has a couple accidents like toddlers have, But she will hold her pee till we get to a potty, she will wake up at night to go, and she uses the bathroom all by herself(with her potty seat). She even pulls up her own pants and everything.. I'm always peeping in and pre-cutting butt wipe for her (or she will use the whole roll lol), but I don't let her see me so she thinks she is a big girl doing it All by herself.
I sold my (Mike's that he gave me) Bike that was in California. With it I bought a new bike here that is comfortable to ride and that I am more comfortable riding safety wise. After the 15th we will buy the trailer for Kai and start going on regular rides. The trailer also helps with the rain factor as it is covered. Hopefully we will get into riding longer and longer. My new friend and her husband might work with us to go more.
New Friends!
So I have made a couple friends up here and they have husbands that Mike has enjoyed as well. Jessie and Brett(her husband) have a son that is 2.5 and he gets along with Kai quite well. Brett and Mike get along as well so that is good. Jessie is cool and we share many thoughts on things.
Then there is the couple Lesley and Josh. They have a son named Gus whom turned a year not to long ago. We have been getting together often lately and it has been great! Game night has been fun too.
Lesley and I have allot in common and we get each other. We like spending time together too. I am glad we are great Friends. For the first time in a long time I feel like I have a Best friend!
I do still miss my friends in California, and the ones I haven't talked to in hella long from Sparks. I still think of them very often. You never forget a good friend!!
So in recap, Yay for a new bike, Yay for Kai being potty trained, And A big yay for new friends and Never forgetting old friends!! :)
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Sore Legs
I woke up this morning with sore calvs and slightly sore thys and back. I'm loving every moment of it! For those that didn't know Mike took Kai and I to Multnomah falls and a couple other falls before it. We hiked about a quarter mile the first fall, and then we got in the car and drove to the big falls. The path was 3 feet wide and made us nervous for Kai to walk by herself because she would not pay attention to whats in front of her and wanted to keep veering to the edge. So mike carried her. Because she is almost 30 pounds Mike tired quickly. I didn't blame him. We went just over a half mile at a 30-45 degree angles. I really miss hiking in the forest. I used to go to Angelas forest (and another that I don't remember) with my brother, uncle, aunt, and friends. I loved it. Being out yesterday reminded me of why. The fresh air, the exercise, the new sights, the plants, the animals... I just love it so much. I am hoping that we make hiking a normal thing. Its a little difficult with Kai but I am hoping to get her wanting to go. Mayby find some kid friendly trails that we dint have to worry that she falls off the edge.
Saturday, February 13, 2010
Another Day on the callender
We have been here 4 months and I'm still not sick of the rain, I am still in awe over the trees, I still like the vibe of the whole Portland area, and I still like to investigate my surroundings. I miss my grandparents and friends dearly. I have made a couple friends, got a puppy and the apartment feels lived in. All seems to be going well. Kai is now considered potty trained with the rare not making it all the way onto the potty accident like most two year olds have. The puppy on the other hand is so friggn stubborn she doesn't want to learn where to pee or poo. Half the time its on the puppy pee pad, and other times...not so much. Most dogs stop in their track when you scold them right when they squat... she just keeps on going, both pee and poo.
Kai had a doctors check up last Monday and got her booster shots and got her blood drawn to see if she is allergic to anything. The next day She puked all over the back seat of our friends car on the way to the zoo. Took her strait to the doc and said it was due to the body trying to except the shots and not to be worried.
Thursday Kai Climbed up onto some boxes that she had gotten in trouble for before and slipped. She hit her head on the corner of the counter. I was in the other room and went to get her off the floor thinking she just bonked. When she wouldn't calm down after 30 seconds I asked where the ouwee was and looked at her head for a red mark. As I swiped her hair to the size I saw a huge lump on her forehead with a bright purple line down it. To give you an idea of the size, picture a boiled egg cut in half and place it on a two year olds for head and that's what it looked like, except more colorful. It scared me! I ran to the freezer and got some frozen corn and placed it gently on her head and cradled her on my bed. I called the ER nurse with my doc office and she asked a whole lot of questions and then since the swelling had gone down in the couple minuets that she should be fine and gave me a list of symptoms to look for. I gave her some Tylenol and kept her up way past her bed time and she seemed to be fine. She now has a yellowish bruise with a nice purpley blue stripe down the center and a slight blackish eye with a little swelling. All in all she is fine :). This, like many more moments to come, scared the Pee out of me. I'm told that many children around this age end up with a nice noggin whack.
On another note, Our tax returns came back and they were enough to pay off my grandfather in one payment. We were afraid this was not going to happen and we were going to have to make payments which would not make my grandfather happy. But now its all good and We are in good graces :). Too bad we couldn't spend it though.;)
That's all for now.
Kai had a doctors check up last Monday and got her booster shots and got her blood drawn to see if she is allergic to anything. The next day She puked all over the back seat of our friends car on the way to the zoo. Took her strait to the doc and said it was due to the body trying to except the shots and not to be worried.
Thursday Kai Climbed up onto some boxes that she had gotten in trouble for before and slipped. She hit her head on the corner of the counter. I was in the other room and went to get her off the floor thinking she just bonked. When she wouldn't calm down after 30 seconds I asked where the ouwee was and looked at her head for a red mark. As I swiped her hair to the size I saw a huge lump on her forehead with a bright purple line down it. To give you an idea of the size, picture a boiled egg cut in half and place it on a two year olds for head and that's what it looked like, except more colorful. It scared me! I ran to the freezer and got some frozen corn and placed it gently on her head and cradled her on my bed. I called the ER nurse with my doc office and she asked a whole lot of questions and then since the swelling had gone down in the couple minuets that she should be fine and gave me a list of symptoms to look for. I gave her some Tylenol and kept her up way past her bed time and she seemed to be fine. She now has a yellowish bruise with a nice purpley blue stripe down the center and a slight blackish eye with a little swelling. All in all she is fine :). This, like many more moments to come, scared the Pee out of me. I'm told that many children around this age end up with a nice noggin whack.
On another note, Our tax returns came back and they were enough to pay off my grandfather in one payment. We were afraid this was not going to happen and we were going to have to make payments which would not make my grandfather happy. But now its all good and We are in good graces :). Too bad we couldn't spend it though.;)
That's all for now.
Yep I borrowed it too.. Thanks Jen and Summer
Memes...
I read Jen And Summers and I love these so I decided to do it too :)
1. My uncle once : was inteligent
2. Never in my life : have I had sexual fantacys about women
3. When I was seventeen : I regret that I cared more about friends than the scollorships I was offered.
4. High School was : Full of dramma
5. I will never forget : the hurt that people have inflicted
6. I once met : Mark and Brian
7. There’s this girl I know who : Needs to grow up
8. Once, at a bar : I got drunk and kissed my future husband for the first time(me too summer lol)
9. By noon, I’m usually : looking forward to nap time
10. Last night : I fell asleep at 10:30 on the couch
11. If only I had : Taken the scollarships and made something of myself.
12. Next time I go to gym/church : Ha!( thanks Jen :) )
13. Susan Boyle : Great singer... Now get over it lol
14. What worries me most : Kai getting realy ill or passing away
15. When I turn my head left, I see : Kainoa
16. When I turn my head right, I see : a couch and a wall lol
17. You know I’m lying when : ????
18. What I miss most about the eighties : not much
19. If I was a character in Shakespeare, I’d be: So many to choose from
20. By this time next year : I hope to have seen family and friends and have made strong friendships with current friends.
21. A better name for me would be : Terra legaly. I await the day I can add the extra R
22. I have a hard time understanding : Lie and cheat to hurt others
23. If I ever go back to school, I’ll : Make something of myself other thatn a preeschool teacher.
24. You know I like you if : Confide in you.
25. If I ever won an award, the first person I’d thank would be : My grandparents, Then Mike.
26. When I compare 80’s rock to 90’s rock : I see so much change in the music indestry.
27. Take my advice, never : Take hate lightly
28. My ideal breakfast is : Belgun waffles with strawberries and whip cream , Or Hash browns eggs and buiscuts and country gravy
29. A song I love, but do not own is : I would love to OWN a song lol
30. If you visit my hometown, I suggest : Taking me with you to show you what isnt crappy lol.
31. My favorite Beatle is : a lady bug lol
32. Why won’t people : learn
33. If you spend the night at my house : You will make me very happy!
34. I’d stop my wedding for : an emergency...
35. The world could do without : Hate
36. I’d rather lick the belly of a cockroach than : Watch Kainoa or Mike die.
37. My favorite blonde is :I duno lol
38: Paper clips are more useful than : some of my family
39. If I do anything well, it’s : care for others
40. And by the way : these are fun
Meme #2
Meme directions:
* Post ten of any pictures currently on your hard drive that you think are self-expressive.
* No captions. It must be like we're speaking with images and we have to interpret your visual language just like we have to interpret your words.
* They must ALREADY be on your hard drive - no Googling or Flickr! They have to have been saved to your folders sometime in the past. They must be something you've saved there because it resonated with you for some reason.
* You do NOT have to answer any questions about any of your pictures if you don't want to. You can make them as mysterious as you like. Or you can explain them away as much as you like.
I read Jen And Summers and I love these so I decided to do it too :)
1. My uncle once : was inteligent
2. Never in my life : have I had sexual fantacys about women
3. When I was seventeen : I regret that I cared more about friends than the scollorships I was offered.
4. High School was : Full of dramma
5. I will never forget : the hurt that people have inflicted
6. I once met : Mark and Brian
7. There’s this girl I know who : Needs to grow up
8. Once, at a bar : I got drunk and kissed my future husband for the first time(me too summer lol)
9. By noon, I’m usually : looking forward to nap time
10. Last night : I fell asleep at 10:30 on the couch
11. If only I had : Taken the scollarships and made something of myself.
12. Next time I go to gym/church : Ha!( thanks Jen :) )
13. Susan Boyle : Great singer... Now get over it lol
14. What worries me most : Kai getting realy ill or passing away
15. When I turn my head left, I see : Kainoa
16. When I turn my head right, I see : a couch and a wall lol
17. You know I’m lying when : ????
18. What I miss most about the eighties : not much
19. If I was a character in Shakespeare, I’d be: So many to choose from
20. By this time next year : I hope to have seen family and friends and have made strong friendships with current friends.
21. A better name for me would be : Terra legaly. I await the day I can add the extra R
22. I have a hard time understanding : Lie and cheat to hurt others
23. If I ever go back to school, I’ll : Make something of myself other thatn a preeschool teacher.
24. You know I like you if : Confide in you.
25. If I ever won an award, the first person I’d thank would be : My grandparents, Then Mike.
26. When I compare 80’s rock to 90’s rock : I see so much change in the music indestry.
27. Take my advice, never : Take hate lightly
28. My ideal breakfast is : Belgun waffles with strawberries and whip cream , Or Hash browns eggs and buiscuts and country gravy
29. A song I love, but do not own is : I would love to OWN a song lol
30. If you visit my hometown, I suggest : Taking me with you to show you what isnt crappy lol.
31. My favorite Beatle is : a lady bug lol
32. Why won’t people : learn
33. If you spend the night at my house : You will make me very happy!
34. I’d stop my wedding for : an emergency...
35. The world could do without : Hate
36. I’d rather lick the belly of a cockroach than : Watch Kainoa or Mike die.
37. My favorite blonde is :I duno lol
38: Paper clips are more useful than : some of my family
39. If I do anything well, it’s : care for others
40. And by the way : these are fun
Meme #2
Meme directions:
* Post ten of any pictures currently on your hard drive that you think are self-expressive.
* No captions. It must be like we're speaking with images and we have to interpret your visual language just like we have to interpret your words.
* They must ALREADY be on your hard drive - no Googling or Flickr! They have to have been saved to your folders sometime in the past. They must be something you've saved there because it resonated with you for some reason.
* You do NOT have to answer any questions about any of your pictures if you don't want to. You can make them as mysterious as you like. Or you can explain them away as much as you like.
Friday, January 29, 2010
Newness
For the past couple days I've been playing with my new puppy Loke. She is a min-pin. Absolutely adorable! We got her from a breeder. She seems to be adjusting well and will go pee on her pup-p-pad when placed on it. The cats love her. The think she is a little toy. I am over joyed in the presents of her.
On another topic, Kai's potty training is going great! She hasn't had any not paying attention to her body accidents. We are even to the stage of no pull-up unless it's bed time. It's great. I didn't expect her to learn so fast. Now if only she could pull up and down her pants by herself lol. We are working on that. She is getting so big and so smart! I love it! Her hair reaches her lower back when wet but she has her daddy's this hair so it doesn't look like it. We had to buy her new shoes because her lil converse squished her toes. Oh and the sad part is last night she had growing pains in both of her thy's and made her cry. :(
Tomorrow is my birthday. Ill be turning 28. i still feel like I'm in my young 20's. I hope that lasts. Mike and i are going to have a day out on the town after going to a chocolate convention. After putting Kai down for bed, Mike and I are going out to dinner and then a movie. I'm excited!
On another topic, Kai's potty training is going great! She hasn't had any not paying attention to her body accidents. We are even to the stage of no pull-up unless it's bed time. It's great. I didn't expect her to learn so fast. Now if only she could pull up and down her pants by herself lol. We are working on that. She is getting so big and so smart! I love it! Her hair reaches her lower back when wet but she has her daddy's this hair so it doesn't look like it. We had to buy her new shoes because her lil converse squished her toes. Oh and the sad part is last night she had growing pains in both of her thy's and made her cry. :(
Tomorrow is my birthday. Ill be turning 28. i still feel like I'm in my young 20's. I hope that lasts. Mike and i are going to have a day out on the town after going to a chocolate convention. After putting Kai down for bed, Mike and I are going out to dinner and then a movie. I'm excited!
Monday, January 18, 2010
Scilence
I have been sick for the past week. It hasn't been easy. After the cold part, I developed bronchitis. I went to the doctor about a year ago and he said it's chronic bronchitis. I have been getting this every year for many years. He also told me that once the cold turns to bronchitis that I am no longer contagious... Like every year I have lost my voice, but this year, it lasted 4 days. Kai didn't take me seriously when I'm whispering for her not to do something lol. Part of my being a better person quest is to pe more patient... This week has been trying for sure!! But we got through it.
Also we have been potty training. We went out and bought pull-ups, and hoped for the best. We didn't think she would do as well as she has been. The first couple days were confusing for her, but that was expected. She didn't understand pull-ups. She peed in them when she didn't want to get up because she tested it and it acted like a diaper. So I went for the go naked butt while at home. It did the trick. Kai didn't want to pee on herself. She then got the concept of what to do and how to tell when she had to go. At the week mark she told us constantly when she had to potty. We went out on Friday and she stayed dry in her pull-up for almost three hours. She said "potty Mommy", so I took her and she did her buisness on the pot. We were so proud ! We then bought her some Fairy butts(panties)the next day and tried them out. While were as Target getting her Fairy butts we also got her the magnet board she needed for the magnet letters she had gotten for her birthday. Silly us introduced new toys and panties to her at the same time. She was so fixed on playing with her letters that she peed right through her panties.. She was not happy. I think she got the clue that the panies didn't hold the pee. From then on for the last couple days we have had no accidents:). She has even been waking up dry. I thought it would be longer and harder than this:).
Also we have been potty training. We went out and bought pull-ups, and hoped for the best. We didn't think she would do as well as she has been. The first couple days were confusing for her, but that was expected. She didn't understand pull-ups. She peed in them when she didn't want to get up because she tested it and it acted like a diaper. So I went for the go naked butt while at home. It did the trick. Kai didn't want to pee on herself. She then got the concept of what to do and how to tell when she had to go. At the week mark she told us constantly when she had to potty. We went out on Friday and she stayed dry in her pull-up for almost three hours. She said "potty Mommy", so I took her and she did her buisness on the pot. We were so proud ! We then bought her some Fairy butts(panties)the next day and tried them out. While were as Target getting her Fairy butts we also got her the magnet board she needed for the magnet letters she had gotten for her birthday. Silly us introduced new toys and panties to her at the same time. She was so fixed on playing with her letters that she peed right through her panties.. She was not happy. I think she got the clue that the panies didn't hold the pee. From then on for the last couple days we have had no accidents:). She has even been waking up dry. I thought it would be longer and harder than this:).
Saturday, January 9, 2010
Opening up
I have wanted to start a blog for quite sometime now. Summer inspired me to get off my (metaphorical) ass and actually do one. Every day I come into new thoughts and need to put them somewhere so I will try to remember to do them at least once a week if not more. I will try not to bore you, but if you do get to that point... I'm sorry.:) I do not expect may people to read this, But for those that take the time... Thank you!
So here it begins..
I will not go back too far, I will leave those thoughts for later blogs. Ill start with the holidays. They were great, but I did however miss my family and friends dearly. Mike and I had a wonderful Thanksgiving with turkey and all sorts of sides with Kai by our side at our kitchen table in our new apartment. For Christmas Mike and I wanted to do something with just us but we were invited to a Christmas dinner with awesome new friends. So we took the opportunity to start new traditions. Christmas eve dinner at our home with family(or others if we travel) and Christmas with friends at their house. We had Lamb and different things that I have not had in a while or at all. It was awesome. We then played cards and enjoyed the night.
Then came new years which we spent at our new friends Jessie and Brents home. There we got drunk , had a blast playing games and BS'd with new people. It was a blast. As for resolutions, I didn't make mine for a couple days after. It was to take better care of myself. I take so much care in cleaning, bathing, helping, teaching, and playing with my daughter and Loving cleaning cooking and having fun with Mike that Ive forgotten to something for myself. I want to do all of this and take better care for myself. So I have been on my own case about eating better, getting out more, drinking more water and being happy when the day has been stressful by thinking of all the things in my future planned and all the great in the past. I know its not much but it is a start. Now if only i had the energy to do it more lol.
So here it begins..
I will not go back too far, I will leave those thoughts for later blogs. Ill start with the holidays. They were great, but I did however miss my family and friends dearly. Mike and I had a wonderful Thanksgiving with turkey and all sorts of sides with Kai by our side at our kitchen table in our new apartment. For Christmas Mike and I wanted to do something with just us but we were invited to a Christmas dinner with awesome new friends. So we took the opportunity to start new traditions. Christmas eve dinner at our home with family(or others if we travel) and Christmas with friends at their house. We had Lamb and different things that I have not had in a while or at all. It was awesome. We then played cards and enjoyed the night.
Then came new years which we spent at our new friends Jessie and Brents home. There we got drunk , had a blast playing games and BS'd with new people. It was a blast. As for resolutions, I didn't make mine for a couple days after. It was to take better care of myself. I take so much care in cleaning, bathing, helping, teaching, and playing with my daughter and Loving cleaning cooking and having fun with Mike that Ive forgotten to something for myself. I want to do all of this and take better care for myself. So I have been on my own case about eating better, getting out more, drinking more water and being happy when the day has been stressful by thinking of all the things in my future planned and all the great in the past. I know its not much but it is a start. Now if only i had the energy to do it more lol.
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